My Christian Morality

-- my reason not to sin was God; because God sees and God doesn't like it, and I want to be pleasing to God
-- maybe this is a good thought to have, but this was really my ONLY thought on my morality
if it's only about God and His Rules, this doesn't teach me to consider the consequences of my actions; God alone is the consequence or reward, and removes my power and agency in my own life to affect the world around me
-- this method doesn't teach us to consider our connections to others and ourselves
-- instead, I want to start weighing my own actions and considering their consequences- to do or not do something because of its benefits or potential to damage
-- this method of morality makes me an active Chooser, it engages my mind and demands that I activate my own will to control my actions
-- this process will push me to know myself and what i want in life and what I value about myself and others
-- out of my fear of God, had a tendency to not even try, to not even consider actions that I felt were wrong- now i give myself permission to work through these considerations- to go through an authentic process of testing, considering, to embrace something or turn away from it of my own free will.

To Actively Choose, rather than just Obey

If i can decide for myself not to do something/to do something based on a connection with my true self, my inner core values, this seems to be far more secure and powerful than adhering to a perceived religious value system- and has huge side benefits: know my self/ my values / my weaknesses much better; take time to consider life, people, human nature, my responsibilities, etc.; restores my agency in my own life